The last time i packed my room (somewhat) was when I moved back home from hall in m2. Even at that time, it was a terrible attempt at packing because I was only half mobile due to my knee injury and surgery.

But now, it's post mbbs, I never thought that this day would come so soon. Even though, I just had another surgery last week, it feels alright. I think all the pain fibres in my right knee have died after all the trauma that it has gone through. I certainly hope that it would be my last knee operation. I don't think I can handle another injury when work starts. For that to happen, I need to be in tip top shape for work - I will need to start regular physical conditioning and continue that while working. I never knew how tiring it could be until the internship at sgh, with it's long corridors and stairs. It was the perfect combination (together with poor footwear) for my accessory navicular bone to flare. After which, running around ttsh and nuh for the last few revision med and surg postings didn't help but exacerbate it. In the end, the weakest link - ie my right knee had to give way and tear itself again.

I foresee that working will be much worse. Doing night calls, resuscitation, running from place to place. There is simply no time or place to hobble around slowly or be in chronic pain. Enough is enough. Enough of knee pain and injuries. I need to strengthen my body for work.

Oh yes, I was packing my stuff. I realised I have so much stuff that I don't need!
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Mental note to self : STOP BUYING UNNECESSARY THINGS!
Really! gosh. Plus I have no idea what to do with all the wires that come with all the gadgets and old gadgets! How do I even begin by disposing of them! The karang guni man doesn't come to my place anymore, the stuff seems so recyclable and usable just that I have no use for them! I could put it into the recycling bag I suppose, but I'm not sure if they'll accept such things! I like to think that I am at least putting in some effort into not destroying the environment, and I'm kind of a hoarder. Throwing away things really makes me very distressed =(

okay, having thought about this, and realised with everything else that prevention is better than cure! so I hereby make a promise to myself not to spend money on rubbish and things that I will not use, because it will only give me a headache on how to dispose of them 5 years later, when I do my 5 yearly packing. 

I still need a good, comfortable but presentable pair of shoes for work though.

Argh, frustration. I still have all my 5 years worth of notes to think about.

 


such a grumpy bird

 today hasn't been the best of PODs, i had a nightmare that someone sat on my knee (imagine a varus force). and then i woke up in pain. -.- 

my favourite brother came by and sat down on my bed, next to my operated leg's foot. and then he just leaned back! ... causing my foot to become externally rotated, and i heard a snap from my knee. -.- i don't think it was the ACL graft, (thankfully), and there wasn't that much pain afterwards, so i don't think it's anything serious. 

you know how i'm supposed to keep my leg and bandage dry for like 5 days? during dinner just now, daddy spilled a cup of water and he was sitting opposite me, i saw the water spreading across the dinner table towards me (like in slow motion) , just that i couldn't move. my operated leg was propped up on another chair, and i really can't move it quickly without aid. anyway, the water from daddy's cup just started dripping on me -.- and of course, i couldn't move away.   

otherwise, it's been a pretty good day. some of my relatives came over, they brought lots of snacks :D:D haha, yay, no worries of what snacks to munch on for the match later. 

 my knee hurts.  k la, currently the pain is about the same as it was during my injury. feels like... global knee pain with radiation to my feet =((((

Thanks mas and jojo for being there. from pre-op to post-op when i was crying uncontrollably in pain. and for laughing when the surgeon called me and my hamstring graft 'short' multiple times. haha.

i'm in a brace now and it's set to 0 degrees, and i can't bend my knee =(((( feels so uncomfortable. i can't sit down properly, can't go to the toilet properly, obviously i can't walk properly. haha. 

i want neighbour to bake me some cookies =((( 

i watched "cloudy with a chance of meatballs" halfway last night. then i went to sleep. i had this really weird dream! like all the dangerous foods that fell from the sky would mutate the people who ate them into mindless zombies. and then the government was out to exterminate the entire area that most of the mutated people were, which somehow included me and my friends. =( then we were on an adventure to find the secret or the 'key', okay, i'm not sure what happened at the end.. oh well. i think i'll watch the next half of the show now.

Yay!!! acjc hockey is in the finals!!! This friday at 3pm at delta stadium!! omg so exciting =))))))) like first time in so many years!!!!! :D i'm so happy, (even though i haven't been back to the pitch for 2 years). i'm sure the girls must have trained really really hard. HOHOHO!

oh. but then, mon and dione are in europe =(. and sher is drowning in work =(. all my hockey buddies are busy. okay, looks like i have to go alone.

Vietnam was definitely the most last minute spontaneous trip I’ve ever been on. Haha, as you can tell, the spontaneity of the whole thing added to the fun of the trip and was the theme of the whole trip.

It started out when I got a msg from yk on a Saturday morning, she told me that she was going with Vietnam and asked me along. By Saturday night, we booked our accommodation and flight. And this was just 1 week before pros, how exciting! haha

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Ok, I think that was the end of our trip. I realised throughout the trip, we didn't take a single taxi ride! I think I’ll miss the traffic there. And of course ha long bay. And all the pho and the cost of food and stuff there.  Travelling really opens one's perspective. Please go to Vietnam before it loses its charm through development and go to ha long bay before it gets polluted and adulterated by tourism! Overall, it was a very good holiday, I feel extremely refreshed and zen now =)

oh man, i wish i could be like everyone reflecting on the past year now. but i can't!! cos i'm way to overwhelmed by c h p and c m p s. and yes, school has started.

something funny happened today while i was studying the paracetamol overdose.

i've been having gastroenteritis (like gastric flu) since friday. so i had diarrhoea and fever. anyway, at home, i only had panadol, which i used to take for the fever. then on saturday night, my dad bought charcoal pills for the 'food poisoning'. anyway, i've been taking over 10 panadols over the past 2 days. and it was only after i read the paracetamol notes again, did i realise WHY MY FEVER WASN'T GOING DOWN!

ok. anyway, it's cos activated carbon ( aka charcoal pills) is a treated for paracetamol poisoning. and should be taken at least 2 hours apart. if not the activated carbon AVIDLY BINDS to all the paracetamol.

"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.
"I don’t much care where--" said Alice.
"Then it doesn’t matter which way you go," said the Cat.
"--so long as I get SOMEWHERE," Alice added as an explanation.
"Oh, you’re sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."
(Alice's Adventures in Wonderland)